Now that I just read your blog, I feel that the issues that I have at hand are nothing compared to what you are dealing with now. Never have I been so insecure about the personal relationships that I make with people because the people that I have let in haven't hurt me (including you).

Not on any level.

Sure I've been insecure about myself and the image that I presented to people, but that was a long time ago. I was always trying to find who I was. To fit in with the people that I thought were "cool" even copying their mannerisms in order make an attempt at being accepted in one way or another. From one thing to another. I tried and tried and tried to become someone who I wasn't. An identity crisis, a struggle to discover myself. The real Chris.
I finally found out who I am. I'm a guy who has a strong affinity to those who care for him. I'm very patient and loyal even to those that I know only on a casual level, as some would put it. I put others before myself. Sure that leaves me open to be exploited, but I think I know better about the people I can and cannot trust.

You know now that I'm on that subject, maybe I am a lot like a dog. Character wise.
Speaking of which, I miss my dog. That black lab named Chaco. That dog deserves a blog in her own right. I love that dog to death and I probably took her for granted at times, but now that's she's gone I can see clearer now that she was very loyal to me and my family.

But aside from that, you know the kind of person that I am.
I'm very predictable because I'm a good guy. You said so yourself.
And the times where you're at the lowest of lows, I'm just a phone call away. Heck, I might even be next to you. I care about you a lot. Where others may have left, I stood my ground. I took a stand for the things that I want to be and do.

And in that moment, when you sing your song. I'll be there to listen and I'll return a tune. Similar but different in every way. And don't be afraid if you need to cry. There's always a shoulder for you to cry on.

Lastly, please don't doubt me.
Cause I sure as hell don't doubt you.
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