Ok the point being is that I took sometime to get over her and that was that. She didn't talk to me after and I didn't make it a point to bug her because I would probably get scorned away. It just feel so rude, to preface a conversation with this is not a catchup call after the only thing I said was "hey whats up" or something along those lines.

Hence, what's done is done. I answered the phone calls out of courtesy and you're right she does have a point but I didn't even give her anything remotely useful (in my opinion) in order to help her finish her work. It was more like a hint or a tip and that was that.

No this doesn't bother me. I haven't talked to her in a while anyway. Not like I care life goes on.

I'm pretty much a cynical motherfucker now.

long story short, told her I liked her she stopped talking to me (which I was fine with) but then she starts calling me and shit when and only when she wanted something to help her with school essentially using me and making me feel like a piece of shit. the most irritating part is that whenever she called me she explicitly mentioned that "this is not a catch-up call" right after I just said hello. FUCKING IRRITATING.

So I call her out on tumblr and then she gets mad because I'm using it for sympathy or something. Fuck no its a blog where I vent. So then after she calls me all fucking mad saying she was using me as a last resort and I shouldn't have answered the phone. That I should grow some testicular fortitude essentially but in my opinion if you actively know that you're using someone why do you still keep calling them? Anyhow, I told her to never talk to me again and said the same thing I've been saying for this ENTIRE time and then hung up.

fuck you samira

Interesting..

Don't get me wrong. I fucking loathe you. Though the things that come to my mind are retarded at this point already.

Dreams wtf

I dreamed about you today when I was taking a nap. What in the world. For some reason things were a lot different than how they were when we were going out for such a short time. We accepted it and I think we were going to make some small talk when we were both heading to somewhere. You never did go out with that Jonathan guy, he gives me the creeps anyway. And then I asked if you needed help with carrying anything cause it looked like you had a lot of stuff. The oddest thing of all was that you asked how come I didn't do that when we were going out. I laughed it off and said, "Maybe I grew up a bit."

Guess I'm not supposed to resent things though I find this dream incredibly odd.

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